If only if I can go back in time.



People saying I've changed.

I've become self centered. I've become arrogant. I've become the bitch that I've always bitched about. I'm no longer the person I've used to be.

I couldn't know. Nobody tells me how I transform. I see myself changing everyday, thought I've grown up but eventually I realize that I've concerned only for myself.

Sigh. I wouldn't know.

"You were happier when I first knew you."

What does that suppose to mean? Life changing drastically. I see disaster happening. I see wars. I see people fall in love. I see people's lives shatter into pieces.

What does that suppose to mean? When I've been through so many incidents, when hatred and dissatisfaction just accumulate within me and finding no way out? How would I be as happy as I used to.

You cannot buy happiness. This saying is just so right.

I've gotten more job opportunities. My bank account has increased. Logically I should be happier.

But why? the emptiness inside me.

I dono how I have changed. but I suppose that is a bad way. Hurting people whom I love, and love me back. Losing some friends that I really treasure.

I guess I just wana be perfect. But to become perfect I have changed.

I just wish I can go back in time.

Saying sorry to whoever I have hurt. Mending all the mistakes I've made. and Moving on without feeling guilty.

I just wanna be perfect.